Admit to myself that “my” best thinking got me where I am in my life.
Admit to myself that if I knew as much as I thought I knew…I wouldn’t have needed to come here.
Admit to myself that if someone gives me “new direction” that it might just be better than my “old direction”.
Admit to myself that if the information I am hearing has worked for thousands of other people…it can work for me.
Admit to myself that I can’t recover “on my own”…if I could, I would have done it a long time ago.
Admit to myself that even if I think that the direction I am given is “pointless”, I have NOTHING to lose by trying.
Admit to myself that my addiction was once the most important thing in my life and I gave it 110% of my effort and attention…I
need, at the very least, to give my recovery equal effort.
Admit to myself that I put my loved ones “through it” and they will be just fine while I am here. They need the peace of mind to know where I am and that I’m ok – They don’t need for me to “hurry home”.
Consider that, “I might get something from this experience”.
Consider the things I “disagree with” before I toss them to the wayside.
Consider trying things I have never tried before. (I might walk away with something I’ve never had!)
Consider the experiences of others, even if initially they don’t seem to relate to me.
Consider that the people working with me have worked with many, many people before I was ever here and they have information that can be beneficial to me.
Consider the idea that I matter and have survived all of this for a reason.
Consider the idea that if I continue to do what I’ve always done, I will continue to get what I’ve always gotten.
Consider that no matter how many times I have tried this, (1-100+), this is my time and if I take advantage of it, I can have a life better than I ever thought possible.
Be willing to “not be right” & give myself the opportunity to grow.
Be willing to ask for help…and receive it when it’s offered to me.
Be willing to ask questions & give myself the opportunity to learn.
Be willing to risk sharing about myself in a meeting…I might just help someone else who isn’t ready to take that risk.
Be willing to tell my sponsor the truth…instead of saying, “I’m fine”. (FINE by the way…can be defined as: Freaked Out – Insecure – Nervous – Exhausted)
Be willing to get out of the bed and start the day…even though I don’t feel like it.
Be willing to step outside of my “comfort zone”…and just see what happens!
Be willing to pray…even though it may seem pointless to me.
The essentials of recovery are “H.O.W.” ~ Honesty, Open-mindedness & Willingness.
© 2012 Rebecca Balko